It's (mostly) official - I'm pregnant! I don't have my first doctor's appointment until March 1st, but all (4) of the pregnancy tests came back positive. Crazy. Absolutely crazy. This really appeals to the non-patient side of me! First month and it worked. I guess our timing was right on haha.
To backtrack... Friday morning I woke up at 6:30am (which is WAY before my wakeup time) from some really crazy dreams and what I thought was just heartburn. I sat up and felt extremely naseous. And not in the "oh I feel a little pukey" sense; more like the "holy crap I'm going to be sick" sense. I went downstairs as to not wake Chris and sat on the couch trying to talk myself out of being sick. After about 20 minutes, I felt a little better. I didn't have a fever. I hadn't eaten anything weird the night before. Although I though this was way too early for morning sickness, I couldn't think of any other reason for feeling that sick that suddenly. I'm going to CVS and I'm buying the stupid tests is what I thought to myself. Off I went.
It's funny how buying a pregnancy test, even when you're married, still seems a little shameful. I was pissed I forgot to put on my wedding rings before I left and I have no idea why I felt that way. Like the 18 year old kid behind the counter really gives a crap whether I'm married or not. I still felt like I needed to grab some other stuff as to not appear as though I solely went in for a pregnanc test. Milk & alka seltzer it was. So weird. I got home and took the test. Attempted to wait a full 3 minutes. Went in and there it was - a stupid faint line. And when I say faint, I mean am I even awake yet or am I making things up in my head? I walked out of the bathroom and back in the bathroom. Faint line. WTF?? Chris woke up a couple hours later and I told him of the faint line and he (of course) calmly stated, just try it again tomorrow.
Saturday morning. Couldn't sleep. Kept thinking about the stupid faint line. Got out of bed around 8:30am, went downstairs since Chris was still sleeping (meanie). Took the test again. Faint line. But not as faint! There was a line. A most definite line. I needed a second opinion. I ran with the pee stick in my hand up the stairs and fell running up. 1) I hate doing that anyways because it's embarassing and 2) way to start your pregnancy off by falling on the stairs! I woke Chris up and made him look at the line. "That's a line," he replied. Thanks Chris. But it's still faint, argghhhh. I called Katie. She says what I already knew from google research - any line is a line. But, like me, she was still nervous to really confirm anything. Katie tells me to get a digital test. They straight up tell you "pregnant" or "not pregnant." Chris & I did errands and stopped by CVS and (less shamefully) picked up the digital tests (2 pack). I had said I wasn't going to take the test until Sunday morning. I snuck off and took it late Saturday afternoon (see: patient post). Little hourglass flashed...thinking, thinking... "Pregnant." SHUT UP! I walked out of the bathroom and say to Chris - "I'm pregnant." Haha. There it is. No denying it. Plain language. Crazy! At this point, we told our immediate families who obviously flipped out. I think everyone was a little surprised (except Katie who predicted this) that we got pregnant so fast. I even took another digital test Sunday morning just for fun and "Pregnant" came up in under a minute. I'm (un)officially pregnant! I know the doctor tests you again so that's why I saw unofficial, but for all intents and purposes - I'm pregs.
Chris & I are still wrapping our heads around it I think. Chris is calm. He is happy but calm. I am happy but nervous. I have had a tough time sleeping the past few nights. It's more difficult because I don't feel all that different and I wish I could feel more as I think it would help me believe it a little more. I still get nervous that it's for real. The only thing I have felt has been some cramping and some stretching of muscles in my abdomen. Nothing painful, but pretty noticeable. It's just a crazy notion, the whole thing. I am just delighted. As I now am trying to cut things out of my diet (like coffee, for now, which hurts my feelings), I tend to get even more nervous with the responsibility of being healthy for this little one. Being healthy for me was easy. And when I didn't want to be healthy, I only had myself to worry about (or a couple extra pounds to gain). Now, I found myself at the grocery store looking for more organic food and watching more what is going into my body and wanting to be a healthy mama for a healthy little one. It's such an amazing but nerve wracking job! I really can't wait until I see a bump growing and can feel my little one. I'm just so excited for the journey. And this time, I'm going to try to be a little patient and enjoy the ride.
Oh one last thing - early prediction - it's a boy :)
To backtrack... Friday morning I woke up at 6:30am (which is WAY before my wakeup time) from some really crazy dreams and what I thought was just heartburn. I sat up and felt extremely naseous. And not in the "oh I feel a little pukey" sense; more like the "holy crap I'm going to be sick" sense. I went downstairs as to not wake Chris and sat on the couch trying to talk myself out of being sick. After about 20 minutes, I felt a little better. I didn't have a fever. I hadn't eaten anything weird the night before. Although I though this was way too early for morning sickness, I couldn't think of any other reason for feeling that sick that suddenly. I'm going to CVS and I'm buying the stupid tests is what I thought to myself. Off I went.
It's funny how buying a pregnancy test, even when you're married, still seems a little shameful. I was pissed I forgot to put on my wedding rings before I left and I have no idea why I felt that way. Like the 18 year old kid behind the counter really gives a crap whether I'm married or not. I still felt like I needed to grab some other stuff as to not appear as though I solely went in for a pregnanc test. Milk & alka seltzer it was. So weird. I got home and took the test. Attempted to wait a full 3 minutes. Went in and there it was - a stupid faint line. And when I say faint, I mean am I even awake yet or am I making things up in my head? I walked out of the bathroom and back in the bathroom. Faint line. WTF?? Chris woke up a couple hours later and I told him of the faint line and he (of course) calmly stated, just try it again tomorrow.
Saturday morning. Couldn't sleep. Kept thinking about the stupid faint line. Got out of bed around 8:30am, went downstairs since Chris was still sleeping (meanie). Took the test again. Faint line. But not as faint! There was a line. A most definite line. I needed a second opinion. I ran with the pee stick in my hand up the stairs and fell running up. 1) I hate doing that anyways because it's embarassing and 2) way to start your pregnancy off by falling on the stairs! I woke Chris up and made him look at the line. "That's a line," he replied. Thanks Chris. But it's still faint, argghhhh. I called Katie. She says what I already knew from google research - any line is a line. But, like me, she was still nervous to really confirm anything. Katie tells me to get a digital test. They straight up tell you "pregnant" or "not pregnant." Chris & I did errands and stopped by CVS and (less shamefully) picked up the digital tests (2 pack). I had said I wasn't going to take the test until Sunday morning. I snuck off and took it late Saturday afternoon (see: patient post). Little hourglass flashed...thinking, thinking... "Pregnant." SHUT UP! I walked out of the bathroom and say to Chris - "I'm pregnant." Haha. There it is. No denying it. Plain language. Crazy! At this point, we told our immediate families who obviously flipped out. I think everyone was a little surprised (except Katie who predicted this) that we got pregnant so fast. I even took another digital test Sunday morning just for fun and "Pregnant" came up in under a minute. I'm (un)officially pregnant! I know the doctor tests you again so that's why I saw unofficial, but for all intents and purposes - I'm pregs.
Chris & I are still wrapping our heads around it I think. Chris is calm. He is happy but calm. I am happy but nervous. I have had a tough time sleeping the past few nights. It's more difficult because I don't feel all that different and I wish I could feel more as I think it would help me believe it a little more. I still get nervous that it's for real. The only thing I have felt has been some cramping and some stretching of muscles in my abdomen. Nothing painful, but pretty noticeable. It's just a crazy notion, the whole thing. I am just delighted. As I now am trying to cut things out of my diet (like coffee, for now, which hurts my feelings), I tend to get even more nervous with the responsibility of being healthy for this little one. Being healthy for me was easy. And when I didn't want to be healthy, I only had myself to worry about (or a couple extra pounds to gain). Now, I found myself at the grocery store looking for more organic food and watching more what is going into my body and wanting to be a healthy mama for a healthy little one. It's such an amazing but nerve wracking job! I really can't wait until I see a bump growing and can feel my little one. I'm just so excited for the journey. And this time, I'm going to try to be a little patient and enjoy the ride.
Oh one last thing - early prediction - it's a boy :)
p.s that is a picture of the test from Saturday morning and that 2nd line was darker than the first test. I guess a line really is a line haha.
Yea!
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